LUBE

April 22, 2021

There’s not much left of my old self...

Of my old perspective.

I’ve become a different thing many times over.

I identify as the whole spectrum now.

I can almost hear myself evolving.

I can definitely see myself evolving...into something better, something stronger, more sadistic, something more and more me.

And I fucking love who I am.

I love pain now.

Pain has taught me everything important.

Pain cleanses like water and it is necessary.

Meditation, exercise, and sobriety have become the pillars of my existence.

I constantly search myself deeper to know my unconscious and my shadow.

There I’ve found a vast and glorious violence.

I’ve found healing amidst the exchange of energy in this beautiful sadomasochistic play.

And even in my dreams I hear my whips sing.